DUMBFOUNDED

I dont like problems. I like everything to be smooth sailing. I really need this. All these problems are too much for a 19 year old to handle. Who else could listen to my problems. Who else could lend a listening ear and cheer me up. Who else would be willing to stand by me.

Its 2.40am now. I am not in the mood for the world cup but who would tuck me in bed and coax me to sleep.

Maybe Maybe Maybe.

But it is actually all the same

SUCKS

I know I have not blogged for a long time. I am caught up at many things at the moment.

I'm lost at the moment and I'm really feeling very sucky. This is no good.

Tuesday is the day I'm gonna start really serious training. Like way more serious than before. I dont want people to look down on me. Iron never gives up on me, never walks away from me. Its a true friend that I can rely on.

I cant really focus at the moment. Too many things going on in my head. Too many thoughts.

Anyway I'll keep them with myself. I'll handle it alone.